R & R (Rest and relaxation)

Yesterday and today I have been not in funk, but in a I don’t want to do anything. I haven’t had enough energy to even put on socks. I wander around the house in my PJs until I have to go out, then I dress quickly, brush my hair, and hope I look presentable.

Also my little Foxy is sleeping more and more. I may quit taking her to the dog groomer. I have a mobile groomer who has taken care of her since the Covid days— so two years or more?

So yesterday she went for her spa day and it lasted maybe ten minutes. She was pacing back and forth in the tub, then she started to cry. Her eyes went strange and the groomer ran with the dog in her arms to me. I paid her anyway. Foxy did get a wash, but lately she is unhappy when she leaves the apartment. She doesn’t feel safe with anyone but me now.

Although she did do great with my nephew who came by last week. Her nose still remembers that he is her boy. He used to walk her before he went to Colorado.

Part of the blah is that I feel her slipping away.

By my count, she is fifteen or sixteen years old. She has been with me nine years.

I’ve almost lost her a few times due to illness, but then she bounces back. She doesn’t seem to be bouncing back this time.

I’ve been meditating to keep my emotions on an even keel. And, I’ve been scribbling.

I’ve almost filled a book with my sketches. My second sketch book won’t have the little dots. I started a store on printify called Cyn’s Scribbles, where I put my sketches on merchandise.

Also if you go to the tab Cyn’s Scribbles on this site, you’ll see my stories about each scribble I have up. I’ve never been into drawing before and I’ve been astounded at what comes through when I get out of my own way.

I am feeling Autumn slip in. And surprising to me, when I looked, I found that today is the Autumn’s Equinox.

May your harvests be rich.

May you enjoy the first day of Autumn.