In the velvet darkness

Even when the sun’s rays hits my face in the morning, I am wrapped in a velvet darkness. It calms the over anxious nerves and pushes me into a gentle sleep. Sometimes I want to escape the harshness of daytime reality.

I want to sink into the darkness of sleep and walk towards the stars. The only picture I have ever seen in my head is a portal shaped like an eye with a swirling galaxy beyond it. One time I felt myself warping through it. I saw the stars stream around me and I was exhilerated because I was in space.

When I saw the first televised moon landing, I knew that I should be in space, but here I am with all of the earthbound in an aging body, yearning for things I can’t have.

The light has dimmed and maybe in a few days I will tell you why. But may he fly in the galaxy and shine there.