In the darkness
To be honest the last two weeks were hard. I received a call that I was on the top of the transplant list and that I should be on standby that evening. I rushed to put all of my things together and prepared the items for my dog. My brother knows someone who will take care of my dog while I am in the hospital for a kidney transplant.
I waited for the final call and it never came.
So I crashed.
I couldn’t keep my eyes open for more than a few minutes. Waiting for the call that never came took every last bit of energy and some hope too.
It took me a few days to pull back from that loss.
It hasn’t helped that when I went to my primary care doctor and she showed me the results of my hip and spine Dexa scan. I now officially have osteoporosis in my left hip and left femur neck.
Both my nephrologist and primary care feel they need to get me on a biophosphanate so that I don’t break a hip.
I was also worried about my Foxy. She had less energy that I did. We were a sorry pair, curled up in my blankets, and sleeping the days away.
So today, since I am feeling better and it is officially my favorite season—summer— I want to feel the sun on my skin and feel my spirits rise, once again.
I just read this too!! I’m so sorry they didn’t call you. You have been on my mind. I have a coworker that received a kidney transplant, I think 5 years ago. I was telling him last month that my sister was at the top of the list. He understood of course what it meant and what you will be going through. We were both smiling and happy for you. Will they keep you on the list and in the same place? I don’t know how that works. I just pray and hope it will happen soon. Maybe the timing wasn’t right. The next time it will happen or I’m going to have to come down there and have a chat with Doctors and surgeons!! Of course I’m kidding! I would love to come visit. Would you be up to that? I love you so much! There are so many people rallying around you, even some you can’t see but we are here and think of you often.
I read all of your poems and little tidbits you write. I enjoy them! ❤️
Love, Belinda
I just read this~I am so sorry Cynthia 😟 That is a terrible experience for you to have to go through😢 Be Really careful with that hip~Your don’t want to be facing anything like that right now😒 All my Love & Prayers are with you & YES it is Summer😊🦋🌺🌻🌹🌼🪻🌞
Love You💗 🫶Auntie Lorna Give you Dog a Hug from me 🤗